SAVOR THE MOMENT
Monday, November 2, 2009, 11:57 PM
Big day, big day it was. Know how much I did over the weekend, ... oh right, my weekend. I have a half an hour to get this all down so here goes. I'll start off with Saturday. I went Trick-or-Treating with my friend and our brothers. Yeah, yeah, 17 year old senior in high school. I get it, but really, some childish things are something I haven't really outgrown yet, I haven't gone candy taking from strangers for years. We all know what happened last Halloween. Well, I heated up some chicken nuggets and watched Smackdown.
Sunday was my work day. Worked so hard, felt guilty when I didn't. In the end I finished my work and even if it mostly were for sixth period, I felt good that I accomplished something. So, when I went to sleep Sunday night, I thought I would wake up late because I always do on Sundays. But at 4:38AM I was wide awake and watched Veronica Mars.
Season 2, episode 21. Damn good episode. It makes me mad that Aaron Echolls was let go that easy and the fact that the jury bought into everything he said was just disgusting. So the getting ready for school part, decided to wear a gray sweater and light blue jeans, the usual, yeah. The hair was straight and nice, everything was good.
I decided to walk a different way to first period and how perfect timing on my part. Right when I got on campus and started walking there, I see him from a distance walking there too. I tried to make it seem like I wasn't too excited to see him and his usual awesome self, so he might have said something to me and I didn't hear it. Lucky stars, we had a sub in calc. Lucky me and it turned out he gave us a free pass on to not do the work. We got the equip out, like we were going to work but we didn't. It was nice. He asked me if he could read my essay draft and while he was reading it he had this look on his face, the furrowed brow and it made me think he didn't like it. Ha, he thought it was good. Given it was a draft and not my best work but the best I could have done in two hours.
We walked to physics and it was sweet. We're doing vectors in this class with some trig and since I loved trig last year it all came pretty easy. Yay for me. It was fun in that class. Trying hard to find a time when I could look at him and he'd look back and have it not seem like I planned it. Ah, but before when that happened it cam naturally, not planned. So, I know what I need to work on. Connections was passing out papers and things, talking. I need to find out my project for senior project and reply back to the e-mails I got. Damn, this is hard. Especially when you can't fucking drive.
Third period was a breeze through period, lots of talking about things... When we came to work on our boards, me with the friend who saved my life, got to talking about the guy I like, me gushing about how he's so cute. Maybe I'm publicizing this a little bit too much but that's the problem when you tell so many people. I never had a problem like this last year but that's different. So my friend's like, 'you gotta tell him that,' which... I just can't. There never really is a time where I can talk to him outside of class, I'm still not sure if he likes me. Still? It's hard. Can't read people's faces.
Fourth period we started badminton. I suck at it and here I was days ago kind of excited because I thought this would be something I would be good at. Ha, I sucked. Mile tomorrow. Sucks. Lunch was wandering around. Finally sitting on one of the black tables in the courtyard and she sees him and calls him over. Ahhh, (so before I go on, in calc he confirmed that he's 15, almost 16. Can I get a damn!!!!!!? It makes sense though) he comes over and pretty much toots his own horn about how much of a genius he is. My words exactly.
Fifth period we went into the Commons and worked, new vocabulary. It was fun but a short period and gotta admit, like I did later, that we're not really learning anything new. Sixth period, ahhh, let's all take a deep breath. You know, after knowing he's younger than me, makes me feel a little bit weird. Someone age shouldn't matter as it does not always show how mature you are but as he's 15, his genius is not, maybe his brain, it's a bit more advanced than an average 15 year old... I don't know, it shouldn't effect the way I feel about him.
Sixth period, I look through the window and see him standing there, gathering his things in front of a table. I go walk in slowly and he sort of quickly, I don't really know the difference and sits at a seat and I go next to him. Of course I do. It's great. So this class, we view the ending to the movie version of the play we read. It was nice, sitting that close to him because then and there's it's innocent, I was just sitting there, trying to lean in closer to listen to the movie parts where they talk deeply. It was nice, especially when he looks at me to talk when we need to talk to the person sitting next to you. Ahhhh, melting. At the end of the day, I stall and wait until he walks out the door and "savor the moment" where he says bye to me. It wasn't really anything special like he looks down at my small self and says it. Today he says bye to me and goes off to the school bus. But it leaves me smiling. I'm a little girl.
So tonight was PN's first parent night, stayed after school until 8PM. In between then, I worked with the group in preparation, worked a little on my personal statement, tried to type it... talked to my friend who was struggling with her essay, did some random things. For the actual event, mis padres did not come but it was cool. Thought I was nervous when I talked but teacher thought I was okay, poised was her word. We had pizza and a special Mexican drink, made me full and then I went home. Teacher and me talking about colleges. I'm thinking about applying to four? That's cool. Don't know if I'll get into any of them but it will be cool.
The rest of my night consists of watching Gossip Girl in four minutes. Tomorrow is a Tuesday which means 2,4,6 block periods and DP. Ahhh, hope tomorrow will be as awesome as today. Oh, it will. I hope. I was singing Bad Romance again, no one heard me this time, when will someone hear me???
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