COLLECTIVE REASONING
Friday, November 20, 2009, 4:20 PM
There's always that calculating aspect whenever a situation occurs where you plan out every minute and make sure there's room for what you need to do. Doesn't describe you? Ahhh, well. it's not for everyone. It's okay. But a little bit of all of us imagines what the day will be like. Where hopes and fears stem from. You're worried you won't get accepted, you imagine what life would be like without your significant other, you assume the day will be like this because of the certain classes of that day... either way, either one, it's never a certainty that the day will go like how you want it. Although we know better than to let what we want dictate what the day should be like and complain when it doesn't happen, there's a small chance that it will. I wish I had a more realistic mind when it comes it me. Because this just sucks.
No need to get sad like yesterday, felt weird typing about him yesterday because I was so down. But anyway, woke up late this morning. Guess when I said need sleep yesterday, body took it seriously and let me sleep in. It was horrible. Didn't know what to wear today. Decided on the same, yet everyday is the same. It was raining this morning.
First period, knew what I needed to do but it's like... if we were doing something new today when no luck for me apparently. Well, today was a work day. For the whole period I did what I did last night minus the doing problems. You see, the only thing that I had left in all the book assignments were the ones I didn't know how to do. And when teacher's busy you can't get that help. Ugh, but this is a journal entry and we don't really care about that more than the aftermath of what happened yesterday in sixth period. Yes, he did wave to me at the end of the day but today... it looked like he was a bit sick, hence the... hood wearing and music listening? I don't know but me and my poor sensing skills tell me he was sick and didn't really want to talk to anybody. Hey, I can emphasize, if I were sick or something, I'd want nothing more than to let people stay off of me. Well, if he came up and asked me what happened, that'd be okay. But anyway, we didn't walk alongside today. He just busted out of class and I didn't get to talk to teacher.
Third period, assembly planning. But it was more like me talking to my friend about yesterday and today. Me freaking out like a girl not like myself about how "everything us ruined." My words exactly. I feel like no matter what happens there's going to be someone who is going to comment. I just think it's so rude how people think they can say anything and not think for one second that it's the wrong thing to say. I hate how people can just say whatever regardless of the feelings of other people.
Fifth period. Forgot my article, left it on the desk. And it was short too. That sucked too. Totally forgot about it, actually. We did partner work. Had to work with someone else and I played the "no se" role where I just didn't say anything pretty much. Went by kind of quickly.
After school, teacher left so I couldn't tell her about my non-talking to calc teacher who left and I couldn't get a tutorial slip from him like I wanted to. So I'm here now and the weekend is mine to waste. Will not being going to school tomorrow for the DP thing. Figure I just work better by myself away from the distractions. I need to do my work too. Plus there's a lot of searching and homework and other things for school. Having a bit of a headache but it's better now than it was yesterday when it just hurt real bad.
How about Supernatural last night? Heartbreaking. Very.
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