Fuck it.
Feedback: 1 comment(s)
Thursday, August 28, 2003, 12:00 AM
Updated Thursday, August 28, 2003, 8:40 PM
xpenxcapxchewx: no more relationships for me
february stars38: fine
xpenxcapxchewx: there's just too much heartache that goes along with it, i'm not cut out to handle that kind of thing
xpenxcapxchewx: i mean what the hell am i supposed to do
february stars38: = dont know
xpenxcapxchewx: it's just fucked. you really fall in love with the person and then it just ends almost as soon as it starts...
xpenxcapxchewx: and then everything just gets fucked up in the end
xpenxcapxchewx: plus i have this little way of screwing everything up. i can't just be happy with what i have, can't accept that fact that someone cares about me, no i have to have everything just so. it's all gotta be my way. 'oh our tastes in music aren't exactly the same, we don't have enough in common, sorry can we just be friends?' god i just want to fucking kick myself!
february stars38: we dont have that problem though
xpenxcapxchewx: i know that... but i just can't get her out of my mind
february stars38: =
xpenxcapxchewx: she was the first person i ever felt so strongly about, she gave me all she had, and what do i give her in return? i just turn around and slap her in the face, just fucking abandon her and exploit her every defect to the point where she has no fucking self esteem left. and why the fuck is being apathetic bad? that's part of the reason i fell for her, i never met someone who was as apathetic as me.
xpenxcapxchewx: god i should shoot myself for that
february stars38: nope
xpenxcapxchewx: yes
february stars38: ..i hate this position
xpenxcapxchewx: i'm sorry, i'm just being a dick again.
xpenxcapxchewx: i'll stop
february stars38: no no
february stars38: its my fault
february stars38: i just suck at this kinda stuff
xpenxcapxchewx: how is it your fault, you didn't do anything
february stars38: I dont know what to say in these type of situations
xpenxcapxchewx: i'll just stop complaining now. it's all in the past, i've fucked up too bad this time, there's nothing that can be done. i just gotta live with it
that's my entry for today. don't like it? deal with it.
|
