7-24-08 itsa hardknock life
Thursday, July 24, 2008, 12:15 PM
it was painful top my ego, to my pride , but most importantly and benificially to the false sense of identity i have been struggling to hold together like a little kid hovering over his little tower of wooden blocks trying just to keep people from knocking him over
well got knocked me over and i went everywhere, but first like the blocks i fell to the floor on my knees and came through finally to true repentance not just the words, and the motions but an actual inner change of my heart and i literally had no control over the matter, as to say it's not my fault god did it it was lal him and im so thankful he did, i once was blind to how stupid, selfish, and destructive i was but now i see and how clearly is my sight !
long story short i have been steadily worked on by the holy spirit , tweaking this, twisting that, til all these minor unnotticable changes became so many it just took one more to break me and to wash my mind clean from all the bad thoughts ive lived with my entire life and to start thinking afresh every day not letting anything or anyone get me down, not to say that im no longer dylan, but the dylan who went into that jail on june 5th is dead and this new dylan is somebody totally different, he's truly and satisfactionally happy with life ,and nothing that can happen or will happen will ever be able to take that contentment from me because it doesnt depend on what happens or on who's there
it rests on the solid rock of my friend, and loving father God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost,
they rescued me from my own problems, my habitual sins, and my prodigal patterns in the last 3 years of my new found faith
if anybody has any questions, wants to hang, or just wants to say"hi its good to hear from you and im glad your out of jail now"
feel free to do that or whatever it is you choose to do
just know that ive missed everyone one of you
no i wasnt jail raped
yeah the food really is horrible
and yeah you really can make friends true friends in jail
love ya
and cant wait to cya and hear ya whichever comes first
Dylan
and to those who know me on the REAL
~Jedi~
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