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how you've hurt me
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Thursday, April 26, 2012, 2:16 PM
all we do is stay home and watch tv
you only want me for sex and wont listen to me when i say no
im stuck dealing with your cousins all the time
you never wanna do anything with my family
now its all about your family
i dont speak spanish and i feel left out almost all the time
i cannot even do anything with friends, even talk to them without you checking up on me
you wana know every single thing about what im doing at every second'
im having a tough time with this pregnancy yet you want me to do all these sexual things that i am not comfortable doing
you always accuse me of being with another guy if i do not text you every second of the day'
i cannot be friends with guys let along talk to them
i cant be home alone with my own uncle or stepfather
you are always changing my words around to make situations worse
im already stressed out at school and you one do one small thing for me like uh...visit
you never wanna try to make things better, youd rather bury your head in the sand which make matters worse
apparently i cant have a job because im pregnant
you think everything is about you
advice
Thursday, April 19, 2012, 10:49 AM
10 PIECES OF ADVICE TO BE PASSED ON TO YOUR DAUGHTERS OR GRANDDAUGHTERS, NIECES, AUNTS, GIRLFRIENDS, ETC.
1. Don’t imagine you can change a man - unless he’s in diapers.
2. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out? You shut the door.
3. If they put a man on the moon - they should be able to put them all up there.
4. Go for the younger man. You might as well, they never mature anyway.
5. Men are all the same - they just have different faces, so we can tell them apart.
6. Best way to get a man to do something is to suggest he is too old for it.
7. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener.
8. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40 years.
Even in Biblical times, men wouldn't ask for directions.
9. If he asks what sort of books you’re interested in, tell him cheque books.
10. Remember a sense of humor does not mean that you
tell him jokes, it means that you laugh at his.
Birthday
Monday, November 14, 2011, 9:59 AM
The weekend started out good then got horrible them got wonderful. such a whirl of emotions going on when all i wanted to do was have a good time on my birthday even though it is today but come on, Mondays are so bleak. Friday i went to the movies with J after almost getting caught having sex by my step father. I feel like I'm 16 even though i am now 22. Saturday was pretty boring til j came home...drunk. He was mad for some reason, he always gets this way when he is drinking. he went to some river with his friends instead of coming to me when i felt depressed for some reason. sad enough to kill myself, I don't know why i got that way..its a mystery to me. he even woke up in a bad mood even though we had made up that night, even enjoyed good make up sex that night on the couch. But in the morning ron woke everyone up to go to breakfast i was all ready and then he got mad because he wanted me to stay home with him. I did stay until he made it all up to me by taking me to the movies to see jack and Jill then taking me to the mall to buy whatever i wanted for my birthday. he spent $300 on me and then we started on Christmas presents. we got my mom's birthday and Christmas present already, Nichole is done and we have an idea for Ron and mom mom.
getting ridiculous
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Monday, October 10, 2011, 8:27 AM
This is beginning to be absurd and ridiculous. Everytime i am in the presence of the male speices J gets angry at me. I have to work with a guy on a school project and he it's like i was cheating on him. We spoke in class twice and it already the equivalent of me sleeping with him. I have to see a male teacher about applying for graduation and he refuses to talk to me. WHAT THE HELL!!!! Im not going to postpone my graduation just because my advisor is male. He wont even let me stay home if my uncle or stepfather is there. Im ready to scream.
Love Ripped Away
Thursday, September 22, 2011, 8:55 AM
I love J so much and yesturday he left to do a move in Boston. Who knew that it would be the last time i ever saw him. I don't know what to do. We had so many dreams and plans for the future. Who cares that he is not legal here. He was brought here as a child. He didn't have a choice in the matter. He has made a life, a happy life with me. He has never done any harm while here, he has paid taxes like any normal citizen he has cared for those who probably dont deserve it. How can a government tear two people apart who live and breath each other. if he is taken away, the governmanet might as well take me to. If they dont i will end my life but it wont be by my hand but the governments. They arer taking my life away from me by taking my love. these people are emotionless, uncaring people. they dont understand the love we share. what am i to do?
almost done
Monday, September 19, 2011, 9:31 AM
This morning i thought our relationship was over. last night i wen to see J in the middle of the night like he asked me to and he would not get up. i kissed him, poked him pulled his hair, pulled his arms. He would not wake up. I went back to sleep and got him up at the normal time, 5:45. He started asking why i forgot to get him up and i told him i tried. he was a little pissed but then he wanted to do it then, 15 minutes before ron would have gotten up. I told him no, i was tired and just didn't feel like it and he went off. He said i dont care about him and that i dont love him. i curled up on the sofa while he went to the room to do whatever. i then got up to see what he was doing and he was packing. i stood in the doorway to make sure he took only what was his. at this moment i was done with it. then he knocked over a pile of my school folders and my high school graduation cap. he looked at it then looked at me then walked away. it hurt so much. I went to my bed and started crying like crazy. Suposively seeing me cry really makes him feel bad and he started apologizing and hugging and kissing me. Im still a little pissed but i guess we will make it ok over time.
same ole
Thursday, September 15, 2011, 9:45 AM
when you start your first semester at stevenson university you will end up going to a presentation in the library thru your 151 class and possibly another class where the librarian tells you how to use the resources in the library and on the website. You will again get the same presentation in english 152 the very next semester. you will get this presentation so many times you will know it word for word. this is my senior year and again i have to have the same presentation in order to do a small research prject for mt theatre class. im tempted not to go and just do the assignment on my own and send it to her but she is giving us credit for being there so im going just for that. ill probably start the project while the librarian is talking. it feels like im a freshman again.
confusion
Tuesday, September 13, 2011, 9:53 AM
This morning i checked my school email and found that my theater teacher sent an email telling us we would be attended a presentation by the school librarian. I have had this same presentation 4 times since I've been at this school which has been 4 years. i really don't want to go to this. i thought the email was suppose to be for today but for some reason i looked at it again once i got to school and saw thursday's date on it. why would she send an email about a class being held somewhere else when we haven't had today's class first. it is very confusing. here i was ready to go to the computer lab in the library. it is also a good thing that i didn't take out the object she told us to bring to class for today. we were suppose to find a white object that meant a lot to us. the only thing i could find was my high school graduation cap. I even thought about taking it out of my bag and not taking it but at the last second i said i was going to bring it just in case. good thing i did.
hours to waist
Monday, September 12, 2011, 10:39 AM
I get to campus around eight in the morning everyday of the working week except friday which i gratefully have off. i do not have class today until noon. On tuesday and thusday i dont have class till 10:50. luckily its a shorter waiting time. these long hour waits though are killing me. i have yet to get a big enough assignment that would get me busy during this long wait. i could read but i am already ahead in that and i dont want to get to far ahead in anything. so far ive been catching up on season 6 of supernatural and playing games on facebook. its all really boring. sometimes i have j to txt with but right now he is working. i have to entertain myself now. sometimes i dont want to go to class but after waiting 5 hours i can't wait to go. maybe one of them will give me an assignment to complete.
Lost dream
Friday, September 9, 2011, 11:18 AM
J and I have had our hearts praying fo tr a chance to start a family. We love each other more than I thought was ever possible. I no im still in college and hes a little immature but lets face it most men will always be that way and if u care for someone that much why not. We have tried for a year now and finally thought we had gotten our wish. Two positivr home pregnancy tests, a slightly larger stomach on me, a missed period and I just felt different. I woke up this morning only to find blood. My period did decide to show up this mornung. We are both devistated. We dont no wat to do. He says he will never leave me but if he does I would understand. I cant give him what we both want
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